Disappointing Pre-Op Appt

Yesterday kinda sucked.

I had what I was told would be my last appointment with the surgeon before my GBP surgery. Turned out that it wasn't.

Woke up at 7 AM (normally, an hour BEFORE my bedtime!) for my 9 AM appt. Met my mom at the clinic and headed up to the office.

The doctor doesn't have people skills. I'd forgotten that since I saw him last in April. It would have gone better had I remembered and been prepared.

He asked me when I'd had caffeine last. I was honest and said I'd had some sips of mom's the other day, but I'm basically off it completely. He began to scold me about how one sip was too much and that's how people fail their weight loss surgery.

As I said, I wasn't prepared for his scolding and took it a little hard. Also, because I am awesome, I'd missed a few of my anti-anxiety pills and I was tired, so I was far more easily upset.
Finally, all of my other appointments have had nothing but praise from the rest of the pre-op team, so the negative reaction was unexpected.

The doc said he would have to review what the rest of the team reported, but he didn't think there would be any reason to deny me the surgery. Once he reviewed everything, he would submit to
my insurance that he feels I qualify. Once he hears back from them that they also approve, I'll get a call and schedule a surgery date.

As far as I understood, by the time of yesterday's appointment, all of the reviewing and approving should have been done and I was going to schedule my surgery at the appointment. I was, I think, understandably upset. All the doc did was yell at me and poke at my stomach, so
it felt like a waste of time being there.

Now, I sit and wait for a call or letter saying I was approved, which will probably take another week. Then, I schedule the surgery and, THEN, I see the surgeon once again in his office a
few days before going under the knife.

I'm just so tired of this dragging on. I want to move forward, get past the surgery, and get on with my life. Meh.

SV and an NSV

Scale Victory:

As of the beginning of tonight's work shift, I've lost 26.4 lbs.

I never wrote it down, but my personal mini goal was always to hit a loss of 25 lbs. I'd be at 23 or 24, but couldn't quite hit my goal. Tonight, I hit it was 1.4 lbs to spare. :)

Non-Scale Victory:

Besides hitting the 25 pound mark, I finished all of my group therapy appointments for my GB pre-op program. Can't even express how happy I am about that.

Those appointments should have taken 12 weeks. Honestly, I think it took me more like 18-20 to finish because I missed so many, due to either being so tired from working a 12 hour shift or
because I worked the night of the meeting. I thought they'd never end!

The meetings themselves were good. Getting to know other people going through what I am going through was beneficial. The people, especially the ones near the end, were fantastic to
talk to. We could laugh and joke and then also get serious when we needed to. Between the people and the material covered, I learned a lot. It was just the time of day that sucked and made it so hard for me to get there.

Now, I can sleep until a decent time on Wednesdays-- 5 PM, preferably. This makes me very happy. 3rd shift people need their sleep too!