Time to own up...

I'm not doing so good with keeping myself on track with my surgery pre-op program lately.

1) I've been off my thyroid med for two weeks. Until it is stable, I can't have the surgery. It'll take me a few months to get my levels stable again.

2) I had a massive migraine for three days this week, beginning Monday. I didn't even look at my appointment calendar, because I couldn't deal with trying to call people anyway. I wasn't
sure I had any appointments to begin with. Turns out, I had three. Now, I have to call and explain the situation and, hopefully, this won't derail me too much--in the past, it has taken me a month to get in with the Nutritionist.

3) My attendance at my Learn meetings has been sporadic. I'm required to attend 12 of them. I've made it to 2. Some missed meetings were due to work--legitimate reason. Others, it's because they're at a time that's horrible for me and I oversleep. Not legitimate.

These issues aren't stopping me from having the surgery. They're just creating frustrating delays. The thyroid issue will put me out into November for the surgery, and that's if the level is perfect after just a few months. Sometimes it takes longer after a slip up. The appointments can be rescheduled and I have plans to call on Monday. The learn meetings, well, by the end of August I should have 7 done. I can try to schedule individual Learns, but, otherwise I should be done Oct 19th.

I guess I'm just mad at myself because these delays were preventable. I don't want my surgery so close to the holidays, but I do want it done before 2012 (already met my insurance deductible
for 2011).

What's done is done. All I can do is continue moving forward from here, right? I think part of it was that I was getting burned out from all of the stuff I needed to do for this. Well, I've had a break, so it's time to recommit and that's exactly what I plan to do. :)