I am a woman with a good doctor visit and a plan.

I saw my Internist for my 9 month follow up. He thinks I am doing well. We went over my meds AND talked about the possibility of getting pregnant around my year Surg-iversary.

He said that all of my meds are okay for pregnancy, even my anti anxiety med. That's a relief. It was also nice to, for the first time, not have the "pregnancies are high risk for someone of your weight" convo. I'm still overweight (50 lbs from my goal of 150 lbs), but not like I was.

He gave me a nice overview of how the medical staff would help me handle a pregnancy too. He explained that they would probably want me to keep my weight stable for the first six months, when the baby isn't really growing large. Then, around 6 months, they would have me increase my calories by a few hundred a day. They would expect me to gain around 15 lbs for the rest of my pregnancy and lose nearly all of that when giving birth.

Having that conversation and information really made me feel like having a baby is possible. It's a pretty great feeling. I walked out of the office smiling and, quite honestly, nearly tearing up.

*rubs hands together excitedly* I can soon stop practicing making babies and really go for it.

Since I am about to get what I hope to be my last birth control shot and that will last three months, I am really recommitting to losing weight before I try to get pregnant. My plan (see, I said I am a woman in possession of a plan), is to up my exercise and start logging my food. Having an end goal (babies!) helps my commitment.

I am going to shoot for 1000 calories a day, BUT I'm changing things up in that I plan eat the extra calories that I exercise off. So, without exercising, I can eat 1000 calories. If I go for a nice long, brisk walk and burn 200 calories, then I am allowed an extra 200 calories that day.  It gives me more motivation and 1000 calories is pretty low anyway for someone who weighs 202 lbs.

Okay, i have to get back to work. Break's over!